Trails by Nature

 

Some thirty years ago, when I started running, I was running trails.  These were trails in the woods that were across the street from my home in my native state, New Jersey.  Being in the woods was an escape for me.  It was a chance to think.  It was a chance to get away from an abusive environment that I was captive in.  A sad consequence of this environment, my brother committed suicide.  September 16, 2016 will mark 30 years since I found him. Having no form of therapy, I turned to running.  My therapy was my running. Another sad consequence, I have eliminated from my life those who created this environment regardless of their biological link to me. The heart creates thin scabs that fall off once in a while, but the running continues.  And…I am stronger because of it.

The one thing that I take away from the environment I was raised in was that this biological donor was a cross country coach.  I remember going to meets and watching his athletes.  I remember listening to him coach them and thinking that I can do what he is telling them to do.  So I did.  In my healing, I found that the happiest I was happened to be when my feet were on the trails.  I did not have special shoes.  We could not afford them.  They wouldn’t be bought for me even if we did have the money. There were no hydration vests or fuel belts, they were not around yet.  I just ran.  My ankles would be caked in crud and filth from the earth that I ran over.  My legs showed the scratches from the wild blueberry bushes and fallen branches.  My heart grew lighter, my chest opened up, my shoulders got broad and I found myself, again.

Flash forward to Sunday, July 10, 2016 when I found myself loving every single inch of a trail run that I signed up for with Baytrail Runners.   The past few years, my focus has been on road running as I have been trying to qualify for Boston.  I have only tried three times to qualify (December 2013 (hit mile 20 in sub 3 hours but lost it at mile 22 – hip flexors), December 2014 (broke down early-bad pacing mistake) and November 2015 (sick with the flu)), but I can see how addictive it is to beat that last time or run the same race a year later, differently, thinking that the BQ is right there.  The truth is, it is downright hard to qualify.  My training runs are there and everything points to qualifying, but darn if that brick wall doesn’t show up at mile 22 and fall on top of me.

So here I am, eyeing my first 50k.  Okay, more information here….here I am eyeing my first 50k trail run!  [insert cheshire cat grin here]. This all started out so innocently.  I run trails at least twice a week and have been for years.  I am on hills a lot (2x a week). This is not something that I am just introducing myself to all over again.  I need the time away, the one-on-one time with the dirt and stones, where my office is.

My goals have NOT changed.  I am going to give that old BQ notion a shot again here soon, but for the next month, I am eating, breathing and sleeping trails.  We have to challenge ourselves to grow.  We have to face tough obstacles to test our mettle.  Believe me, what I endured in this lifetime is more than many can even imagine. Running 31ish miles is just another obstacle for me to take on.

I set a goal for myself to run a 50k by 50 years old.  I am running to support a friend who is celebrating her 40th birthday with a 50k.  I can’t think of another way to celebrate that milestone than to be there with her and to check off a bucket list item too.  A friend stated to me that it [running a 50k] is a slippery slope to the 50 mile, 100k and 100 mile.  Will I be writing a similar blog entry a year from now?  Who knows.  I know I can’t wait to find out.

If You Can’t be a Unicorn, be a Mermaid

It has been a while since I have written a blog entry.  A lot of this has to do with the fact that I am just so busy!  So much has happened since my entry in November.   After I healed my wounded spirit from my debacle at Revel Canyon and losing that elusive Unicorn somewhere on the course (well, it was actually at mile 16), I immersed myself in other things running related.  I even managed to land myself a job working with a very respected and wonderful race director for a women’s race series entitled, Mermaid Series.

Shortly before coming on board at Mermaid, I passed my RRCA (Road Runner’s Club of America) coaching certification.  That’s right folks…I am a certified coach now.  Not only can I share my almost 30 years experience as a runner with people, but I can do it with a certificate to back up what I have learned through years of running and through my course study.  Mermaid was icing on the triple layer cake!  mmmm, icing….

My focus is on group coaching.  I create training plans for the participants who sign up for Mermaid Series runs.  Many who run the Mermaid Series are new to running or are trying to gauge their abilities to move on to bigger races. My plans are tailored to the new runner.  I feel confident and comfortable talking to a newer runner and building their confidence levels.  Keeping these people in a positive frame of mind helps not only their training go smoothly, but it also is a big boost to see these athletes cross the finish line.  Perhaps that is my selfish pleasure, but, I love seeing them cross the finish!   Though I had a itty bitty part in that journey, I feel a sense of pride in watching them achieve their goal.  To say that I am “honored” to be a part of their journey is an understatement.   I share their passion and their enthusiasm.  I have finally found my groove and I am in this for the long haul.

With Mermaid, I have learned a lot about race production and am now focusing on getting my certification to be a Race Director.  For me to be a help to my RD, I need to know the industry and what is required.  Besides, Assistant Race Director really, really sounds good to me! Recently, I have been approached by an organization to design a race for them and to have this honor has just completely made me so excited.  I honestly can not find the right words to express how incredibly happy I am and what an honor it is to be considered an authority.  My passion about this crazy little sport of running is turning into a very lucrative thing for me.  Knowing that people believe in me and hold me in high regard is really very humbling and I am just without words.

In addition to my position at Mermaid, I have also been a taste agent for SkratchLabs.  This is my second year as a taste agent and I have managed to bring Skratch to our races as our means of hydrating our participants.  Knowing that I can keep our participants healthy while on the course from the inside out, gives me peace of mind.

Skratchlabs is not the only ambassadorship that I hold.  For the second year in a row, I am wearing the Ambassador hat for The San Francisco Marathon.  Representing my local marathon and being one of the faces of this very prestigious and beautiful race is truly a wonderful experience.  I have the pleasure of working with some really amazing and talented people.  The San Francisco Marathon is in just a few short weeks, three to be exact.  TSFM will be my 15th full marathon and comes close on the heels of celebrating the 10 year anniversary of my first full, Nike Women’s Marathon in 2006.

There is plenty going on in my world and every time I run, I think about what I should be writing, but it just never happens.  I find that it is easier to write on my Facebook page, I RUN California, about the daily motivation, inspiration, and perspiration in my world.

I am still chasing that Unicorn.  I just have the tail of a Mermaid to help propel me along.

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Game Changers and Learning Experiences

I am now three days post marathon and while I was fairly quiet about doing Revel Canyon leading up to it, I decided that after running that course, that I will NOT be doing CIM ( California International Marathon​)this year. I just deferred the 2015 race to 2016. My decision was based on the extreme forces that were put on my legs running Revel. I would not be able to recover quickly enough to “race” CIM the way I want to. Even if I ran CIM for the miles, I fear that I would risk injury. I have learned that no medal is worth the injury or the potential for injury. I know my body well enough that I really think that this emotional decoupling and ability to pull off this race was the best for me and my running future.

I will be running the Berkeley Half marathon as my last big race of the year. I will run a small 5k on Thanksgiving morning with my children. I will not be toeing another line until March. Berkeley will be run at a nice, gentle pace as I will only be two weeks post Revel. In December, I will ease back into training again for my favorite full marathon, the Napa Valley Marathon​. I will “race” Napa. There are only two marathons that I attempt a PR or even give my all at for the hope of a BQ. They are Napa and CIM. My body needs the gentle downhill course with the softer rolling hills for change in muscle work. I also need the cooler temperatures as I do not do well at all in temps higher than 65 degrees. Napa and CIM offer exactly the perfect environments for me to do what I think, is my best work.

I post this because it is important that you give yourself the chance to heal when you need to. I am here to validate you. I am also posting this because this is advice I would give to anyone. This is my attempt at leading by example.

To say that I am very disappointed in my results at Revel is an understatement. I trained very hard on this last training cycle for this race. My paces were where they needed to be for a PR and even if lucky, a BQ. I left that course without even as much as a PR. But, I am proof that regardless of how hard you train and regardless of what your watch says, if the body does not want to work, it won’t. Running Revel sick was not my intention, obviously. But it happened. I rallied and I did not give up. I had no idea that I would be dealing with a 2K+ gain either – that was a game changer. That mountain was a beast and I gave it everything I had. Believe me, I have been through so much more in my life – that mountain did not beat me – I still got off it and I got the earned medal to prove it. I also know that it may not be my race to run again. Does that make me miss out on a possible chance for a PR or a BQ on that course in the future? Maybe. But, I know beyond a doubt that I now know what my body can tolerate and what it can’t on a course. Maybe all is not a loss. Maybe I gained Personal Reflection (my new PR) on that course. Maybe it is true after all, every race you learn something different about yourself.

My Garmin results at a glance from Revel Canyon on 11/7/15:

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Revel Canyon City Recap

“What did you just do to us?”  “We are going to shrivel up and die!” “I will no longer support you!”  If my muscles could talk, I am sure that these are the things that I would be hearing from them right now.  Twenty four hours ago, I managed to bring my very tired, lactic acid filled body across the finish line of the Revel Canyon City Marathon.  I went into Revel thinking it was, as they state on their website, “a smooth downhill slope”. For the most part, yes, the race is exactly as it states.  It is a fast course.  So fast in fact, that I found myself forcing to slow down because the grade is so steep (approximately 5%) that the course will get away from you, if you are not careful.

I had the most amazing training cycle leading into this race.  My coach, a 7 time Boston Marathoner, accomplished marathoner, and intelligent runner/athlete worked on a plan designed specifically for me and what my strengths and weaknesses are.  I followed that plan to the letter.  Early on, we found that speed work was really not something that my body tolerates well.  I get injured quickly with speed work.  We adjusted and went more for hilly tempo runs, pace work, and long slow distance work that kept me within the minute to minute and a half race pace projection.   I trained on hills.  I had races and training runs where the hills were long descents and ascents to help my muscles acclimate to what I was about to endure.   My neighborhood is full of hills.  My days were spent working on core work, strength training, and making certain that I was strong enough to sustain 26.2 miles of pounding that a “net downhill” course can bring.

Based on Revel Canyon City’s description, this would appear to be a good race to get a BQ and a PR.  I combed through the site for months.  I read descriptions of the course.  I ran down the course virtually at least once a week.  I was going to be fully prepared.  I looked up reviews online.  Nothing ever came up about the hills that one faces at mile 16 and thereafter on this course.  Apparently, the end of the marathon was changed from the inaugural year, taking the participants up hill before turning them into Azusa Pacific College for their finish.

When I talk about hills on this course, I mean they are significant hills.  These are hills that go on for approximately a quarter to a half mile or more.  The first significant climb is right out the gate at about mile 2 where you are dumped onto hwy 39.  This was actually a nice break given that as soon as you cross the start, which by the way, nobody in the back realized the race had started.  There was no overhead announcement.  There was no National Anthem.  There was an announcement to put all our drop bags into the truck to be taken downhill, but nothing to announce that the race was beginning.  Unless you were in the front of the pack, you would have been completely unprepared for the gun, and many of us were.

At mile 2 there is a hair pin turn around where runners run up a hill after starting off on a fast down hill.  The change in muscles being used was a nice break on what would and could eventually harm runners who did not take care to slow themselves down.  Runners are still fairly high in altitude so the breathing started to get heavy at this point.  The hill is quick and over fast. It was a nice little reprieve. Runners are sent flying down the hill for another 11 miles of winding turns on a road that cambers to help with water run off.  This camber began its slow chew through my ankles and tendons of my feet.  My outer calves began to feel the stabilization work I was doing to keep myself centered.

I was running with my dear friend and coach, Jackie, from FitSparrow.  For the first few miles that we were together,  we kept checking in with each other knowing that we both wanted a BQ on this day.  We also had a understanding that if one needed to break away, the other would let that person go.  We run well together.  Our relationship is such that we understand each other without having to express much.  However, our mutual respect for one another keeps the communication open so that there is never a question or doubt.  Jackie had to separate from me, I went on without her wondering if I would see her again later on the course.  I had a lot of race left ahead of me.  She is pretty fast, so I anticipated her arrival.

At Mile 10 or so, after Jackie and I separated, I tucked in with the 3:45 pacer till about mile 16.  I asked her what to prepare for ahead because I had been warned that there were significant hills on the second half of the course that would make all my muscles feel like they had been slammed against a wall.  The pacer named Jen from Beast Pacing, was amazing.  Even at a 8:13 avg. pace, I was not winded, and could talk in complete sentences.  This shows me how fast the course is.  For example, just a week prior, I won my age group in a 5k and my average pace was 8:11.  I could barely talk when I got over that finish line.  I was having full conversations with my friend Jackie and the pacer for the first half of Revel.  I was told that at mile 13.5 there would be an uphill.  And there was. My half time was a solid 1:47:50.  I had built a beautiful 10 minute lead that I could work with.  I was trained to run and finish a 3:50 marathon.  All my pace work was solid.  All my training was solid.  I was running faster than pace in a lot of my training runs.  I was strong.  But mile 16 hit.  Mile 16 is a hill that comes out of nowhere and it is a solid climb.  The change in muscle groups that are used to try and climb this hill demolished all in our running group.  We had an accomplished marathoner who was aiming for a sub-3 hour marathon who fell apart at this mile due to the hill.  While she did finish the marathon in 3:18, a stellar performance by any standard, she also claimed that mile 16 and all the rolling hills thereafter were what finished her off.  It was also at about mile 16 when Jackie caught up with me.  She ran with me again for about 5 minutes, but I was struggling.  She went on ahead.  I kept her in my sights for a few miles.  Mile 20 was the last I saw her.

This course may be a net downhill, but there is absolutely nothing on the site that warns a participant to prepare for the work that lies ahead of them.  There is nothing on the site that talks about the hills on the second half.  They are the ones that are going to change your whole race.  I can not tell you enough how difficult it is to run a course downhill, monitoring your speed, making sure you are keeping your feet under you without overstriding, making sure you are not braking, making sure that your foot falls are light and quiet, for an entire half marathon.  All of that is happening while you are trying to keep your wits about you and then the course changes to an uphill trek.  It is like slamming on the brakes after going 100mph down the highway.  Physics work against you.  Your muscles are literally shredded.  When you try to run the downhill again, and there are more of them, you are hurting so badly that it is hard to take anymore steps.  You honestly can not believe that you find yourself walking on the downhill.  At least that is what I felt.  This course is not to be taken lightly or thought of as being easy.  You will be trashed.

At mile 20 there is another significant hill.  At this point, it became almost comical. The lack of mention of these hills in the later miles of the race left one completely unprepared.  I was resigned to the fact that I would not be getting that BQ.  I had watched my 10 minute lead dwindle and was now a 10 minute deficit.  To say that I felt defeated was an understatement.  That mountain took it all from me.  At mile 23, with 3:46 elapsed on my watch, I was in cellphone range and I managed to text my husband that the BQ was gone.  The PR was possibly gone as well.  It was at this time too, that I began feeling the cold that I had been battling for the last 48 hours.  My body was shutting down.  My walk breaks became longer.  I was no longer concerned about time.  I merely wanted off this course.  I was getting angry at the improper description of the course.  I was not angry with myself.  I gave it all.  I had nothing left to give.  I had the training.  There was nothing else I could train for.  I was strong, but now, I was broken down.

Mile 24 was flat, though still descending into the town of Azusa.  It was hard to run in a straight line by this point.  What would normally feel like a easy two mile run was now so hard to manage.  Each footfall had to be thought out and controlled.  The muscles in my legs were shutting down.  The last mile was uphill before turning into the finish.  Everything I had was left on that course.  There is absolutely nothing that I would have done differently.  It was not about going out too fast.  That was controlled and many of my pace runs were sub-8:30.  This course was a different beast altogether.

Runners exit the race through chutes filled with volunteers giving out water, a huge, and very heavy medal that is about as large as a teacup saucer, wet towels and food.  I was too exhausted to go through the food tents or take advantage of the beer garden.   With wobbly legs, I managed to get my drop bag and left the course.  But before I did, I noticed something I have never witnessed in the 12 marathons I have run prior to Revel.  I could not believe the number of people in the first aid tent and those collapsing around it.  There were collapsed wounded everywhere.

Revel is definitely a different race when compared to other road races out there.  However, if you are considering it, be fully warned that this race will trash your quads and all large muscle groups.  Your stabilizing muscles will be extremely sore.  You will feel muscles you never knew you had.   My review is based on my opinion and my experience.  Others ran the race and did obtain their PR and BQ.  But, they all echo that it was a different and very tough race.  I am not saying that a marathon is easy.  I am trying to convey that this one is beyond any other course I have ever run.  It is very technical.  There really is no way to train for something like this unless you are used to running downhill for significant periods of time (10+ miles) at a 3%-5% grade.  For now, I will let the bicycle enthusiasts keep claim of this course as their own.  In my humble opinion, this is not a road for runners.  The steepness and and the camber make it more conducive to a wonderful bike ride down the side of the mountain with scenery that is breathtaking. This runner won’t be going down that mountain again, unless I am in a car.

Thank You: From the Front of the Pack, To the Back

Amazing! Worth the re-blog because this sentiment never gets old.

Bad Angel Rules for Running

*Guest post*

The time has come for me to finally say thanks, to thank a lot of people I’ve been meaning to thank but haven’t had the courage. I want to say thanks for all the inspiration I got from the runners I’ve seen and talked with, but that I’ve never run with. Specifically, the people who doubted themselves in word, but inspired me through work.

This is my confession of thanks, from one runner in the front of the pack, to the runners in the back.

(Photo credit: Drew Reynolds http://www.drewreynolds.com) (Photo credit: Drew Reynolds http://www.drewreynolds.com)

This year was my second year training for the Chicago Marathon with Chicago Endurance Sports (“CES,” as we call it), an awesome group of people that run year-round training for all manner of races. And when I say all races, I mean it: they have groups for people just beginning running to complete their first 5K and for…

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Napa To Sacramento And All Places In Between

It is hard to believe that 2014 is coming to a close.  It has been an amazing year for me despite so many challenges physically with my back and hip.  I started off 2014 with 4 full marathons planned but I am ending the year with 5 full marathons completed.  I ran approximately 5 half marathons in 2014.  I ran a 18 mile race and a 10 mile race.  I will have averaged 100 miles a month by the time 11:59:59 PST hits here in California on 12/31/14 for a total of 1,200 miles ran in 2014.

In March, 2014, I set out to do what I could not accomplish at the California International Marathon in December, 2013.  I finished CIM with a huge PR, and was on target to qualify for Boston when I began having trouble in the latter miles.  I did not hit a wall. I was not tired.  I merely was cold.  Freezing cold.  We had the craziest cold snap that hit Northern California just two days prior to the 31st running of CIM.  It was a balmy 23 degrees at race start.  There was black ice on the pavement where the water stations were located.  People, including myself, had ice hanging from their hair and clothing.  I realized it was sweat that was freezing instantaneously.  I hit mile 20 in sub 3 hours and I knew that my pace was on target to BQ.  But, that did not happen that day.  As I mentioned, I self-destructed with hip flexor issues and being cold.  I finished CIM with a 4:11 for an all time marathon PR.   My BQ time is 3:55.  I still have a lot of work to do, but I realized how close I was.  I entered 2014 with the goal to finish what I started and run my smart race again at the Napa Valley Marathon.

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CIM 2013 – I never shed a layer. It was that cold!

The Napa Valley Marathon is a beautiful marathon.  One rarely gets the opportunity to run along the Silverado Trail without traffic.  On this day, I ran one of the most beautiful courses for my 6th official Full Marathon in my running career.  The weather was perfect at the start of the race and I PR’d my 10k mile time and my 1/2 marathon time at this race.  But (dun, dun, dun), at around mile 16 or so, my left knee began causing me pain.  At one foot fall, I actually felt it hit bone on bone (or at least it felt that way to me).  That pain was excruciating.  I kept running a little bit more, but it was more of a hobble step.  It happened a few more times and I had to eventually get help at an aid station.  I asked them to immobilize the knee with an ace bandage just so that I could finish.  I was so close to the end and a DNF was not in my future.  I knew I could finish.  I finished somewhere around 4:38.  (I actually do not remember all my finish times).  I was deflated.  I knew that I could have ran that race perfectly if it were not for my stupid knee.  (Insert boo lip here)

PROOF of knee issues from hip misalignment at NVM, 2014

PROOF of knee issues from hip misalignment at NVM, 2014

It turns out that my “stupid knee” is an issue that is actually part of a bigger issue.  Just a day after running NVM, not only did I sign up to run it again in 2015, but I hobbled into a chiropractor’s office.  I have been the route of sports doctors and have been told to a) stop running; b) let’s do surgery; or worst yet c) let’s block that nerve.  Wait….What???  NO!  Chiropractic care was the furthest from my mind, but I was not going to go under the knife and there is no way anyone is going to block any nerve.  Really, aren’t nerves important?  The nerve the Orthopedic Doctor  wanted to block was an important one too, the peroneal nerve (an offshoot of the sciatic nerve that provides sensation to the lower part of the leg and foot). Within a few minutes of being with the Chiropractor, she informed me that my sacrum (triangular bone at the base of the spine) was out, my hip was out of alignment (leading to the tracking issue with my knee and other issues) and eventually we found out that I had three compressed discs at 1mm each (minimal but enough to cause pain in the sciatic nerve). When my hip is out of alignment, it pulls on the lower back and the discs flare.  My gait is affected and ultimately my time gets slower as I get into the latter miles of a marathon because I am so tired and in pain.

On the DRX - Spine decompression to help with lower back pain and pressure.

On the DRX – Spine decompression to help with lower back pain and pressure.

I ran the Hollywood Half Marathon in April with my dear friend, Jackie from Fit Sparrow. We had so much fun running the race as friends and just catching up.  I was in a lot of pain from my back and she was dealing with some issues herself.  That weekend turned out to be one of the most relaxing and fun weekends that I have had since, well….since traveling to New York in November, 2013 to run the New York Marathon with Jackie.  Friendship means more than a finish time.

My dear friend Jackie and her dinner plate medal at the Hollywood Half Marathon.

After the Hollywood Half Marathon, I continued with my chiropractic therapy.  My chiropractor understood my goal to get to Boston and she worked with me to decompress the discs in my lower back and to help keep that left hip in alignment.  I ran the Big Sur Marathon at the end of April as part of a relay team.  The Bad Mama Jammas took Big Sur on and we finished strong.  I had a wonderful team from a running group that I created in April, 2013 and now co-lead with a friend.  Not wanting to just run a portion of the course, I decided when I set up the team that I would run the whole course and got clearance from the race directors that this was okay.  I ran my 7th Full Marathon at Big Sur and finished in a little over 5 hours.  That course was tough.  It was not a course that I did for time at all because of two issues, my back and I wanted to enjoy the beauty of the course (read:  selfies).  I was able to run with the women who had designated relay legs on the course and they motivated me during the times when I was really hurting.  I got to run a bit with my friend Julie Weiss, Marathon Goddess.  We talked a bit and played leap frog for a while.  In addition to playing leap frog with Julie, I leapt over Leigh Anne from Get Fit with LA and she in turn leapt over me.  We wound up crossing the finish together.  There is honestly no greater thing on a course than friends helping other friends.  Between the ladies in my running group, and friends on the course, I finished that race and earned two medals that day.  One for the Relay and one for the Full Marathon.  Friendship means more than a finish time.

Celebrating Marathon #7 at Mile #7 of Big Sur with Julie, Marathon Goddess!

Celebrating Marathon #7 at Mile #7 of Big Sur with Julie, Marathon Goddess!

One of many leap frog moments on the Big Sur course.  We decided to have fun.

One of many leap frog moments on the Big Sur course. We decided to have fun.

After Big Sur, I was so discouraged.  I felt that my times were creeping up and I felt the Boston Qualifying time slipping away.  I joked that at this rate, I would qualify when I was 80.  Part of me believed that to be true and not a joke, but I kept a smile on my face.  I nearly deferred my 8th Full Marathon, but it was an expensive one to defer.  My chiropractor wanted me to run this 18 mile race I had signed up for with the Mermaid Series called the Sirena 18.  I ran that race out in Fremont on a very warm May day.  I used it as a training run and also as a test to see how my lower back would hold up for Mountains 2 Beach, my 8th Full Marathon and 3rd Full for the year.  I was met on the course by a very dear friend of mine and her son.  They provided me with hydration, hugs and my very own cheer section.  They brought smiles to my face that I will always remember.  I finished the Sirena 18 with one of my teammates from my running club.  She was running the half marathon and we caught up with each other with just 4 miles left to go in our respective runs.  We helped each other along to the finish.  This was yet another running moment where friendship means more than the finish time.

At the end of May, I flew to Santa Barbara and drove into Ventura to run Mountains 2 Beach.  My chiropractor believed in me.  She said I was ready.  So off I went.  Running down a hill from Ojai to Ventura is quite a ride!   That course has some very beautiful spots along the way.  Still, at mile 18 I began to feel the hip and the lower back and my average mile time began to creep up.  I decided to just have fun and when I crossed that finish line with a 4:35 finish, I managed to do a jump and the photographer caught me as I was coming back down.  My motto – Always have fun!  I finished that race and have a beautiful medal to show for it.  I was alone on the course that day.  But there were followers from my Facebook community page, I RUN California,  who saw me and yelled out to me either during the race or after the race.  These were the words that I needed at the time to help me press on and keep my head high.  My phone exploded with well wishes and congratulatory posts.  Friends, even when not present, mean more than finish times.

My 8th Full Marathon finish. Mountains2Beach, 2014.

My 8th Full Marathon finish. Mountains2Beach, 2014.

I ran into June with a half marathon time that PR’d the course from the year before, but did not PR my official half marathon time PR of 1:57 at RnR Las Vegas, 2013.  I was feeling so numb and beginning to think that my goals and priorities needed to change.  Sadly, I also had to change my chiropractor as my insurance would not cover her care.  That was a sad day for me.  I have retained her as a friend, however.  I hope she realizes how much her words and care helped me during some very dark moments in my silly runner brain.  I helped a friend as she ran a half marathon with a very strained back.  I was worried for her and did not want her on the course alone should she need assistance.  Whether I needed to piggy back her or get her to a spot where I could run and get my car, I wanted to be with her.  That race, The Diva San Francisco, went down in the books as a race to give back to a friend in need.  That day, we celebrated the finish line, not our finish time.  Friendships mean more than finish times.

Finishing my 9th Full Marathon on my 45th Birthday.  The San Francisco Marathon, 2014

Finishing my 9th Full Marathon on my 45th Birthday. The San Francisco Marathon, 2014

In July, I celebrated my 45th birthday by running the SF Marathon.  I have always wanted to run this race, but my family’s schedule has never allowed me the opportunity to be away.  I was determined to make the SF Marathon my 9th Full Marathon. On July 27, 2014, I set out to run my race.  I got a nice send off by Bart Yasso.  I had decided early on that I was not going to run this race for time, but for the mere enjoyment of running on my birthday.  I was running with many friends along the way and was hoping to pick them up along the course.  I ran over the Golden Gate Bridge, enjoying a run that I ran many times before, but this time with thousands of brand new friends and on the road bed of the bridge.  After getting off of the bridge, I ran into my friend Tony from I Am Endorphin Dude.  I gave him a huge sweaty hug and was on my way.  Shortly after seeing him, I ran into Ken from The Hollywood Half Marathon holding up his FREE HUGS sign – so of course I had to get my free hug from my friend Ken.  Running through Golden Gate park, it was getting really warm.  It was very humid on this day in July.   It was very odd weather for this time of year in San Francisco.  People were beginning to feel the heat and many were beginning to slow their pace.  I ran into another dear friend as she was starting the second half of the marathon.  We ran a bit together but were soon separated.  I ran that course at my pace and walked when I wanted to.  I talked to people and had fun.  At mile 24, a man fell in front of me, grabbing his calf.  By this time in the race, it was extremely warm and people were looking out for others around them.  I stopped immediately and began helping this man by rubbing out his calf.  Fortunately, a shop owner saw what was happening and came to his aid with water and an electrolyte drink.  I finished that marathon feeling extremely nauseous but it did not stop the tears that came to my eyes as I crossed my 9th Full Marathon finish line.  I finished that marathon around 4:48 that day.  Wandering through the finish chutes, I noticed so many ill people from the heat.  One man next to me was suffering from nausea.  I tried helping him as best I could.  We were all helping each other.  New friends and helping others means more than finish times.

A hug from I Am Endorphin Dude at the SF Marathon

A hug from I Am Endorphin Dude at the SF Marathon

The SF Marathon - A beautiful course. Doing what I love most!

The SF Marathon – A beautiful course. Doing what I love most!

I took the month of August off to really begin my focus on training for the California International Marathon in December.  I implemented the Hanson’s Training Method.  My mileage crept up and I was working with a new chiropractor who practices A.R.T.  I was really getting strong and healthy.  My average mile times began to come back down and my tempo runs were where I wanted them to be.  I was building back to where I was prior to Hip-Gate.  It was also during this time that the Mermaid Series accepted me as one of their Ambassadors.  I now proudly promote their races and am able to race with them when I can.

September brought the Clo Cow Half Marathon, see here for this review of a fun race in Petaluma, California.  It is my favorite half marathon.

Celebrating Christina's first Half Marathon finish at the Nike Women's Half Marathon.

Celebrating Christina’s first Half Marathon finish at the Nike Women’s Half Marathon.

October brought me the unexpected honor of pacing my dear friend, Christina, to her very first half marathon finish at the Nike Women’s Half Marathon.  I wanted that experience to be enjoyable for her and managed to get to her to all her cut off points so that she could focus on just maintaining her endurance.  Christina did wonderfully and I am so proud to say that just a few days after running Nike, she signed up for a 10 mile run at Big  Sur in April, 2015.  Yep folks, we have another running covert!  It was so important to me to see her finish this race.  Christina was worried that I would want to run ahead, but that was not what this moment was about.  This moment was about finishing with a friend.  This particular finish line was important because I was crossing it with a dear friend of 18 years.

November brought another Mermaid Series race.  I ran this race with a few of the ladies from my running group.  We all have different paces and so they understood that I was using this race as a test to see how I would do for CIM in less than a month.    The Sirena 10 mile race was in San Francisco.  I raced a hilly course over the Golden Gate bridge again and through the Presidio.  I managed to finish with a average pace of 8:52 and a finish of 1:28.  I knew that I was on target for CIM.  Things were spot on.  I was ready.  The hip felt good.  The back felt good.

Unicorns in our midst!

Unicorns in our midst!

December brought me into CIM with the eagerness and readiness of a warrior.  But, I was dealing with issues from swollen lymph nodes.  It was evident that I was fighting something.  I took a few days off before CIM and did not run.  Three days before CIM, I went out for a 3 mile shake out run and averaged that run at an 8:17 pace – I was so ready.  This girl was going to fly.  I was excited to meet Kristina from Live Laugh Love Run, my friend Jackie from Fit Sparrow, the ever charming Dashing Dad, Sharon from Rungry Runner, and Tony from I Am Endorphin Dude.  This weekend had potential to not only be a Boston Qualifying race, but also a memory maker as all these amazing people whom I follow were at one place at one time.  I was thrilled to be a part of their company.  I look up to these amazing people and they are very inspirational.  We spent a lot of time at the expo and then Jackie and I went on our merry way to go hunting for Unicorns.  Boy did we ever find them! Unicorn wall mounts, Unicorn shirts, Unicorn masks, Unicorn stuffed animals, Unicorn sweatshirts and even Unicorn “Meat”??? – yes, I said Meat.  Not wanting to give myself bad mojo, I quickly put that can of “meat” down.  There was no shortage of laughter and the night was spent with my dear friends at a wonderful tree lighting ceremony and Pre-Marathon dinner in Old Sacramento.

Fit Sparrow, Rungry Runner, Dashing Dad, Live Laugh Love Run, and I RUN California at CIM

Fit Sparrow, Rungry Runner, Dashing Dad, Live Laugh Love Run, and I RUN California at CIM

On the morning of December 7, 2014, I awoke feeling strong and ready.  The girl that was going to qualify for Boston was going to go to the starting line.  She got on the bus with Dashing Dad, Live Laugh Love Run and Endorphin Dude.  She laughed at the stories and shared some of her own.  But mostly, she was focused.  She was focused on the task ahead and what she needed to do.  After hanging out at the start line, she said good bye to her friends and toed the line with the 3:55 pace group.  I spoke with the 3:55 pacer ahead of time and he told me that he would not get me in to qualify, but would get me close enough.  I just needed to pull away from him ahead of time and start adding time to my latter miles if I felt good enough to do so.  CIM was to be my 10th Full Marathon, my 5th for the year, a potential sub 4 hour marathon, a potential Boston Qualifier, and a PR.  There was a lot on my mind.  Maybe too much.  I started off with the pace group and we did great.  I noticed that my watch was running paces that were higher than the 8:58 pace that was talked about.  I heard my friend Jackie scream my name at the 5 mile mark for the first relay group. I raised my hand to acknowledge her.  She said that she noticed that something was not right by the look on my face.  By mile 8, I realized that I could no longer hold the pace that the pacer was holding.  This is not what I had planned.  I looked at my pace band (3:50)  and I was well ahead of where I needed to be.  That should have been a good enough sign to pull off on my own and run MY race.  Instead, I began the self destruction in my head.  I beat myself up that I let the pacer go.  I can not believe that I could not stay up.  What is wrong with me?  I trained so hard.  I stayed in my head until mile 18.  Then when I broke out, I was mad that I was in my head for so long. I never get caught up in my head over races like I did on this day.  I wanted those goals so badly and I knew I could get them, but I watched them all slip away. During this whole journey, I kept seeing the same woman at three different locations.  She carried a sign that was decorated with huge green foil ribbon that was curled around the words.  This sign said, “Think Positive Thoughts”.  Wow.  Just. Wow.  Every time I saw her, I read the sign and I would try to make eye contact with her, but she was always looking the other way.  Was this my message?  Was she there just for me?  I want to think so.

At mile 23, I hit a water stop and then it hit me.  My hip was aching from the weight of my hydration bottle on my lower back.  My friend Jackie had ran her leg of the relay, got to the finish line and was walking the course backward looking for me.  She knew something was not right when she passed the 3:55 group and could not find me.  She knew that when they finished and I was not with them, that there was something wrong.  She came looking for me.  As if we were twins, I sensed her.  I looked to my right and there she was, running out to me with this look on her face – a look of worry and concern.  Her presence at that moment was more than I could ever wish for.  Jackie ran me in for the remaining 3 miles.  We talked and passed the time.  Jackie shared with me that our mutual friend, Michael from Run Nerds Rock, ran 11:11 miles 8:58 pace just for me.  Anyone who knows me knows my relationship with 11:11.  He could not get me the message, but wanted to make sure that she gave it to me when I finished.  That message gave me a perk in those last miles and my pace began to come back up.  Jackie entertained me and talked to me.  It was Jackie who helped me finish this race.  I cried when I finished CIM because I felt that I had let so many people down.  I knew my training was there.  I knew I could do this race and finish the way I intended.  I have a friend who is instrumental in delivering the movie, Spirit of the Marathon and Spirit of the Marathon II. She was sending me messages prior to CIM filled with inspiration and guidance.  I felt that I let her down.  I felt I let my family down.  I felt that I let all these people down, BUT I did not feel that I let myself down. I suppose this is key, here.  I felt discouraged, frustrated and really angry that I did not run MY race.  I know what I am capable of and I did not deliver.  I guess that is a good thing that I did not let myself down.  Because if I lost hope in me, then where would I be?  As I crossed that finish line – the final one for 2014, I had a new PR for the year.  I finished CIM in 4:26.  I missed all my goals, but I created a new one with Jackie by my side.   I would PR for the year. As I gathered my medal and came through the chute, I saw two of my friends and Jackie coming up to meet me.   I broke down in tears and realized then that friendships are worth more than finish lines.

4:26 finish at CIM - December, 2014.

4:26 finish at CIM – December, 2014.